Part 12.SHOULD I OR SHOULD I NOT Stop Cancer Treatment

Deciding if Midway Through Cancer Radiotherapy and Chemotherapy to STOP Treatment

Side Effects Mid-way through Radiation and Chemotherapy. Tips for Managing Treatment

By this time mid-way I was now feeling very despondent and my mind was trying to weigh up where I was physically and mentally both I found were definitely linked.

Mentally I always wondered why someone came to a decision to cease all cancer treatment knowing that without it they would die?

Now I knew- The anguish pain and self-resolve all combined to give a feeling of helplessness and feeling that it would inevitably lead to one destination. The feeling of upset watching your family retreating down the slide of despair with you and wanting to end everyone's hurt quickly. Sitting upright in a chair (when you are Lucent from the painkillers) leads to a lot of thinking.

My physical at this time was quite disturbing as I was still losing weight (Even though I had in my Nasal Gastro Tube  EPISODE 11) my appearance was stooped, my color was pale my face was gaunt I was feeling stiff in my joints (off my Rheumatoid arthritis medication) and felt unsteady on my feet.

the side effects were now getting severe with minimal saliva and what was there felt like a rope hanging down my throat. Now it was impossible for me to sleep in a bed as I would feel like I was drowning when I lay down so for quite a few months I slept sitting up in an armchair. The pain medication was a slow release so I would quite often snooze on and off during the day.

WHY YOU SHOULD NOT END CANCER TREATMENT

 

THE FIGHT BACK TO HEALTH.

1/FAMILY AND CARERS NUMBER ONE REASON I AM STILL HERE!

My wife and stepdaughter lived through this every minute- every hour my carers! their comforting smiles and trying to constantly keep me buoyant, feeding me by nose taking an hour each time 3 times a day.Giving me hope when I was down and telling me to fight on we had got this far and the end of treatment was in sight. I OWE MY LIFE TO MY TEAM OF SPECIALIST -MY WIFE  AND MY SUPPORTERS

It is a Battle ! Fight one battle at a time, focus on TODAY, and get through TODAY.

The next day you focus on the fact that you won yesterday's battle and today is another day 

Remember how you won yesterday's battle USE IT and if needed IMPROVE ON IT.

EACH DAY you are one step closer to finishing treatment.

Your family does NOT want to lose you. YOUR STRENGTH gives THEM STRENGTH 

Remember this IS and ISNT an individual battle.

YOUR TEAM OF SPECIALISTS AND CARERS believe in YOU and do not want to lose the battle 

(YES THEY ARE IN A BATTLE AS WELL) to get you through this cancer, keep remembering these FACTS you are not in this ALONE.

IF YOU FEEL YOU ARE STILL NOT COPING, break TODAY's SYMPTOMS BATTLE down into 

sections MORNING DAY AND NIGHT.

KEEP BREAKING YOUR DAY DOWN (HOURLY IF ITS THE CASE)UNTIL YOU WIN THE TIMESLOT BATTLE.

Remember you won that battle and start again, Don't WORRY ABOUT TOMORROW you are in TODAY.

EACH LITTLE BATTLE WON TODAY builds strength and momentum for TOMORROW.

GUESS WHAT ?               ANOTHER DAY BEHIND YOU AND YOU ONE STEP CLOSER TO 

                                                                 RECOVERY !

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